here, take back your bullsh*t

The following is a collection of contributions from members of the Ex-Christian Science collective about leaving Christian Science.


 

One of my favorite moments of my Christian Science departure was packing up a shopping bag with all my Christian Science literature and leaving it on the doorstep of a Reading Room. My friend described it as ‘here, take back your bullsh*t!’

– Hilary


Every puff I take on my asthma inhaler, every antibiotic and pain medication I’ve taken, and every visit I’ve made to the doctor or hospital, has been my giant f-you to Christian Science.

– Jeremy


When I was pregnant with my first child, I had a difficult pregnancy and I was under a doctor’s care. My grandmother insisted on hiring a Christian Science practitioner for me. She lived out of state, and during a phone ‘treatment’, she told me a story of her infant dying at home and how she just left the room, completely serene and unaffected. Her child was dead that was no big deal. She just knew the truth. Lo and behold, her daughter revived and she went about her normal activities. I was completely freaked out and never looked back at Christian Science. That was 20 years ago.

– Renee

10 comments

  • MJ

    About a month ago, I gathered all of my C.S. books (including markers, chalk, concordances and hymnals), put them in a paper bag, and threw them away. It was exhilarating. Having been a church clerk for many years, I saw the enormous collection of textbooks, etc . that our branch church ended up with after members died, and I wanted to save my family from having to deal with that task, no matter if it’s tomorrow or 30 years from now.

  • I realized when reading this that when my oldest was born (and I hadn’t been in CS for 10 years) I still had the urge to lie to my mom about whether or not we were getting him vaccinated! I was a grown-ass woman, for heaven’s sake. Sheesh.

  • The Spice of Life

    After reading the introduction to God’s Perfect Child, I was so angry that all I could think about was burning all of my CS books. I don’t want to donate them because I don’t want to enable anyone to read them. I’ve never burned a book in my life.

    My therapist thinks this is an excellent idea and will be good closure for me, ridding my house physically of CS in addition to working to rid myself of it mentally.

    • Chrystal

      Book burning is so awesome. It’s so much fun to write horrible words on the pages like:

      “Man is absolutely made of matter, brain, blood, bones, veins….. and it’s all completely amazing and beautiful and wonderful!!!

      “Take THAT, Mary faker Eddy!”

  • Thomas W.

    I joined the mother church in 1974. Although I did not always follow eddy’s teachings, when I did, they stuck in my mind and I can not get them out. I no longer subscribe to the crap the church teaches, I have on several occasions attempted to give up my membership.
    One time, a big shot at the church phoned me and made me feel guilty, so I asked him to disregard my request. I even worked at the center in Boston (once as a janitor at night, while going to school in the day) I got almost full access to many areas which others never saw. My other job there was in the publishing society building. Why in the name of God, can I not simply write a (polite) letter and this time, actually LEAVE THE INSANE ASYLUM??? I know, in c.s. b**shit, it is so called mortal mind.
    It is as though someone placed a small bug in my brain. I know it is crap, but I still hear m.b.e. speaking to me.

  • Thomas W.

    Just typing the above has opened up a FLOODGATE of bad memories. The insincerity, the NEPOTISM, the constant feeling of being a lesser human being while at the church, especially while working there as I was not from a c.s. family. The failure of not being able to secure a better paying job at the center, and being told I should “PRAY MORE” about it, and being driven crazy while a son or a daughter of someone there, most often an employee whose parent was a practioner was hired over me(PURE NEPOTISM)
    I found the phrase, “I can leave christian science, but it won’t leave me” and that soooo applies to me. ms. eddy, PLEASE GET OUT OF MY HEAD.

  • Chrystal

    Thomas – it is quite cathartic to write your personal story about all the ways the “christian science belief system” has hurt you – mentally, physically, spiritually…

    And we would love to have it on the blog. I hope you have written to the church and released yourself from the burden of being a member. It’s a wonderfully freeing experience – and you can start breaking the rules in “the manual of the mother ship” as soon as possible. It feels completely awesome to pull your name out of membership then start breaking the rules.

    Reading “obnoxious books” is , for lack of a better term: AWESOME.

  • Christian

    Some internet-only churches “ordain” people who fill out forms online. This sounds like a joke (and sometimes it’s supposed to be), but it’s true. As the Church Manual forbids Christian Scientists from holding the title of Reverend, I certified myself at an internet-only church and then wrote to the Mother Church. I told them I’d accepted a title of Reverend and thus made myself ineligible for membership. They dropped me from the rolls immediately, and I’ve never heard from them since.
    Maybe that will help!

  • Chris

    Thomas:

    I’ve been where you’re at. Growing up, I had C.S. preached to me. I had no choice. Although I willingly accepted it, growing up, as I got older, I wanted to FREE myself of the mental confusion, anxiety and depression this belief system can bring about. I know all about the feelings that are projected on you about not measuring up (I had to grow up with it), and then getting the same thing from other people in the church (as well as people in a college Christian Science “Org”). I know the feelings of having gotten involved in something like Christian Science, having it in your head, and then wanting to get rid of it, but feeling like it is nearly impossible.

    I’m here to tell you CAN get beyond it. Mrs. Eddy does NOT control you, and Christian Science is NOT the final word. That’s why we have groups such as this. That’s why there are such extraordinary books like “God’s Perfect Child”, which will help you do that.

    It can’t all be done in a day, or a week, a month. But little by little, through effort, you do feel it leaving you. It’s happened with me. Stay with it, and don’t give up.

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